So- last week, you may have noticed (but probably not cause you’re busy too) that I was a bit absent from the blog.
No big reason, other than I just needed a damn break. I couldn’t get it together to put together a blog post, there was no time. I was over tired from staying up till 3am trying to make content happen, I was overworked, there were other projects that I had to push to the side & I just needed a mental health week.
I am the first to admit it, handling stress isn’t my strong suit. I get overwhelmed, moody, angry, & a bit on the OCD side.
I guess the whole social media anxiety disorder just got the best of me. The feed was flooded with beautiful content from Paris fashion week & I was sitting at home just trying to keep my head above water. I couldn’t compete with that, & frankly I didn’t have the energy to even try.
I was drained & kinda just said fuck it… which really, isn’t my style. Did it make me stressed last week I wasn’t keeping up with blogging schedule? ABSOLUTELY. Did I have an extreme case of bloggers guilt (piled on top of my already Jewish guilt). HELL YES.
BUT- it needed to be done. I needed to hit restart, refresh, & just let myself have a week. You guys didn’t disappear, the world is still spinning, & now I am feeling so much more refreshed. Overwhelmed- yea…but that may be who I am.
Now, that being said. I am not complaining cause I truley truley LOVE my job, but I do think it’s important you guys know… it’s not all roses all the time. I am not a doctor, which is something I tell myself daily. “LISTEN- if doctor’s can do their job, I can do mine” (that is some real stress, praise to all the doctor’s out there!!).
I don’t really know what brought this post up, just one of my good old fashioned rants, but I think it probably had to do with the message I got on Instagram the other day.
“I have always wondered about entering the world of blogging & then I found you. I looked at your page & thought to myself ‘WELL SHIT, if this girl can do it, so can I.'”
I didn’t respond cause I was hurt. My feelings were hurt, my ego was hurt, & it just made me feel icky.
What blogger’s do isn’t rocket science, but it’s not a cake walk either. It can be rewarding as fuck, but it can also be draining. It is great to connect with people all over the world, but they aren’t always kind. It is a daily learning experience, but sometimes hours behind a computer screen can be hard on the eyes/posture/mental well being. It is fun creating cool content, but cameras can literally suck the energy right out of you.
But then, there is magic that happens. You meet people who have been influenced by what you are doing. Appreciative, kind, & motivated… & then it is ALL so worth it.
Okay okay, that’s all. Love you all. Stay safe in this scary world & keep your head up, we’re all in it together. x, E
what I’m wearing
[ PHOTOS BY ARIELLE LEVY ]